I really need to set up some kind of blogging schedule so I can better communicate with myself (if that doesn’t make me sound crazy, I don’t know what does). I had the intent to blog all week but right now this will have to do. I make my creative writing students write three pages in their journal per week so maybe, I should do the same. I am trying to get back into writing but I feel disillusioned by all of the critical literary papers I had to write in college. Then came the lesson plans.
+ EK and I decided on a tentative wedding color palette. We’re thinking a rich brown, cream, and turquoise for the main colors and since it’s a fall wedding, I’d like to do a orange for some minor accents. I really would like a brown or turquoise sash to go around my wedding dress. But I have to pick the dress first.
+ My learning specialist in my classroom is just wonderful to work with. I can be very easy going regarding students who require accommodations. Having been an at risk aide, I get where you need to let go and where you need to be a little more steadfast. Anyhow, I just like her and she gave me a wonderful recommendation for a wedding photog that will only charge about $100 for our engagement pics.
+I assembled the majority of my fall wardrobe this weekend and last. I feel good about this.
+My idea of a Friday night equals a nap, late grocery shopping, and renting The Walking Dead Season 2 from Family Video with EK.
+EK and I are going to see The Gaslight Anthem tomorrow! It was a birthday present and it’s finally heeeeere. I haven’t been to a concert in ages!
+ I will now have a little more freedom with my weekends since I put in my intent to resign at Younkers.
– I just quit a job that I have worked 10 years at. I have formed a lot of relationships. I have been taken care of by some of those ladies more than some of my family members have taken care of me. Most of them are gone. Some I will invite to my wedding, but, mostly it’s just bitter sweet. I don’t deal well with change either. I’m struggling on this. I am working my last two shifts at the end of the month and I imagine I’m going to be pretty bummed. Hopefully, I’ll have come to terms with this a little more by then.
-I have been asked twice if I am pregnant this week. One in part because I was wearing a tunic and another because a kid was generally interested as he put it, I dress like I am. I’m happy to have an open dialogue but a girl can only get asked if she’s preggo so much before it starts to affect her self esteem. I have a belly. I will always have a belly. It is not a muffin top, but it is a belly. I am built like a brick shit house but I am a beautiful one.
-I hurt my knee at the gym last week. Like really hurt it. It was swollen for awhile and because I was favoring it, my hips and back hurt too. It’s finally starting to feel better and I’m going to attempt the gym on Tuesday.
-I am over the test the new teacher game. So over it. Fortunately I’m good at confrontation.
-Two students added to my roster are emancipated and as they call themselves “street rats.” I am keeping a very watchful eye on them to make sure they can have a chance at receiving their due education.
-My nails are brittle.
-I haven’t had any time to read Dance with Dragons. 😦
-I haven’t had any time to read, period.
-I have 3 huge loads of laundry to fold in front of me, but I’m going to take a nap.
1. School t-shirts, no matter how uniquely and intuitively designed are nothing but ugly.
2. The term “at risk” really applies to you, as a teacher, more than the students. (Everyone could be considered at risk for some reason anyhow. The world’s fucked up.)
3. As long as you arrive in the building before your admin, you are not late.
4. Never let them see you cry, unless of course, it’s during Challenge Day and you want to appear slightly more human.
5. Use the bathroom at every opportunity you are not around students. Leaving in the middle of class inevitably leads to “WHERE ARE YOU GOING MISS K!!?!”
6. Some students will argue for the sake of arguing. For instance: While handing out grade sheets, student argues “I turned that in!” Student finds appropriate assignment shoved in his book. Teacher wears smug look but chooses to say nothing. Student says “You must have handed this back to me without a grade on it.” Teacher has rage stroke.
7. The camaraderie you will find with “like” colleagues will be more helpful than a handful of xanax and a shrink.
8. Care just enough to give it everything but not so much that you take it home with you. (Easier said than done.)
9. Be prepared for anything. Just when you’ve seen/heard/ it all, a kid will ask you if you’ve stopped getting your period in the middle of class because his cousin told him her period stopped when she was 18.
10. Caffeinate. Then drink water to balance out said caffeine.
11. Arrange classroom with as many open spaces as possible. The more spaces, the less places they can hide.
12. Make an ass of yourself once and awhile.
13. When angry, never go above a level 6 (out of 10). Explain that to students.
14. When something really gets under your skin, rant about it for longer than necessary. Students will not want to hear it again or, even better, will monitor their peers. In my case, I heard a lot of “Don’t get her started again.”
15. Have fun with the curriculum. If you need to teach The Scarlet Letter like it’s a trashy talk show to get your students to pay attention, do it. If you need to make a bad joke to get them to remember something, do it. If you need to dance across the room singing “Deeee oh ELLLLLLLLLLL” and pretend to be the overcaffeinated DOL fairy to get your students to shut up, pay attention, and FINALLY understand the difference between a colon and a semi colon, you do it.
EK reminded me that his “favorite blog” hasn’t been updated in awhile. Point taken. Life sort of happened between my last entry and today.
+ While I couldn’t post it until everything was official, I accepted a teaching position at Fond du Lac High School and submitted my resignation at Horace Mann High School. I graduated from FDLHS in ’04 and it’s very surreal to now call some of my former teachers “colleagues.”
+ Engagement pictures. EK and I haven’t had a lot of time to devout to wedding planning only because I did not have a set budget during the summer. The first thing I want to do is take engagement pictures and I’d like to take them in October. Our tentative date is October 2013 so it’d be nice to have them a year before the wedding. Maybe that IS the tradition for engagement pictures. I don’t really know or care.
+ I have the opportunity to go to a coworker’s daughter’s wedding today. I’m not super jazzed about knowing no one there but I think it will be good to look at it from the “okay you’re going to get married soon here are some ideas” standpoint.
+ I got to catch up with Angie this week. Love her. We were at dinner for almost 2 hours talking constantly.
+ Found owl wall stickers for my classroom yesterday.
+ Impromptu date day. I went in to rearrange my classroom and I ended up in Oshkosh with EK for awhile. We visited House of Heroes, Satori, St. Vinnies, and the Fox Valley Thrift Shoppe. Then we came back to Fond du Lac and visited the mall because I had a few redemption coupons I needed to use. Victoria’s Secret? Free undies? I’ll take it!
+ I am so thankful for the type of relationship I have with EK. I cannot say it enough. I don’t like to delve into details because I feel as though we speak for ourselves publicly but it just works, so well. And we’ve come a long way from what we used to be.
+Orly’s “Opal hope” nailpolish
+ I have really been into benefit makeup lately.
-I found out that one of my students from North Fond du Lac was diagnosed with a rare form of thyroid cancer today. He is starting his senior year in high school. Unfortunately I am reminded all too well and all too often that a lot of inconsequential stuff that people bitch about doesn’t matter. Teaching keeps me grounded and I hate moments like these that remind me of that.
-I am a bad student. This means that I have a heck of a time sitting through long meetings like: new teacher orientation, technical college tours, general staff meetings, etc. However, once again, it keeps me grounded. I don’t expect my students to sit through class long lectures either.
-Cosmo + Sophie = SO MUCH DRAMAZ! For the record, EK and I own the two most neurotic cats on the planet. They are SO fickle and inconsistent.
-So much of my mental & physical wellbeing runs on me having quality sleep. Yeah that’s kind of a “duh” statement but I feel like this applies to me more than a normal person. I didn’t sleep well yesterday and spent a good portion of it feeling ill and crabby. EK can attest to this. I can be a rotten little asshole when I’m tired. I also hate the fact that my internal clock does not match up with EK’s. I could be in bed by 9PM most nights.